I am 10 weeks and 2 days pregnant today. I am feeling pretty good as of right now. I have had some rough patches the past few weeks so I’m happy that today is a good day. For about two months now I have been sick. Not throwing up, but sick to my stomach ALL day and night! On top of that I have been extremely fatigued which makes it very hard to take care of my son. So last week I was kinda depressed from being so sick. I couldn’t really play with my son, or clean my house, or run errands. I just wanted to sit and not move. My husband started a paramedic program over a month ago so he is NEVER around. He is so busy with school and work I never see him. So that was getting me down on top of everything else, and I started questioning why I chose to put myself through all this. Needless to say, I remembered quickly why! I thought about the parents and all the happy moments I have already witnessed them having with this pregnancy and it quickly cheered me up. No one ever said this was going to be easy, I knew it wouldn’t be. I hit my low point and I’m back on the other side of it feeling strong and excited again. I am over 10 weeks now so I imagine very soon I will feel back to normal. Less tired and less sick.
Other than that, things have been going well. According to my “What to Expect Pregnancy Tracker” the baby is the size of a lime. I am starting to show a little. I mainly just look like I have been eating too many doughnuts. LOL! I’m bloated a lot so it’s not something that is noticeable yet. I had lost a few pounds from being so sick but now I have gained them back. So total weight gain since the pregnancy started is 2 pounds. I think that’s good… I guess it is a good idea to have a goal weight gain in mind. I will talk to my doctor when I see her next but for now I will go with 25 pounds. I really hope I can stay in that range. I gained a lot of weight with my first pregnancy, and it was so hard to get it off again.
I have some great news also! My brother and sister-in-law had a baby girl on October 14th! I am so excited about my new niece! Next week I won’t be posting because I will be with them helping out with the new baby. :-)
I guess that is all I have tonight. Oh, one more thing! My husband, son and I are going to the parents house in a few weeks to have dinner. They will meet my son for the first time. I’m very excited for that! I really hope I feel better by then so I can eat with them.
My first appointment with my doctor
Today I had my first appointment outside of Stanford. It was so weird being back at my OBGYN’s office. It brought back so many happy memories of being pregnant with my son. The parents couldn’t make it to this appointment because it was too short of notice. My doctor was booked three weeks out but just so happened to have a cancellation for today so I took that appointment.
Since it was my first appointment with the office for this pregnancy, I had an ultrasound. The baby is getting so big, looks kind of like a big peanut. :-) Everything looked perfect with the baby! Whew! After my ultrasound I saw my doctor. It was actually SO good to see her! We talked about my son for a while, she asked me about my decision to become a surrogate, we talked about the parents. It was very nice. I love my OB and her assistant. They both remember me and my husband which is so comforting. We reminisced about many happy things. She did tell me that she had one concern. After I had my son I had bad postpartum depression. She remembers how bad it was for me and she wanted me to remember that there is help out there for me if that happens again. Other than that, she is so excited for me and the parents. Next, I had to have a pap smear. It didn’t even faze me. It was like, I have had worse with the embryo transfer, I think I can handle this! After that I had a lot of blood drawn for testing. The assistant remembered my fear of needles and asked if I would be ok. I reminded her of all the injections I had to do, and all the blood work in the past month alone I have had drawn. We both laughed, I think it is safe to say I have gotten over my fear of needles basically from over exposure to them. All in all it was a great appointment! I even found out that their office has seen many surrogates over the years. I’m learning more and more that this isn’t as uncommon as I once thought it was. That makes me so happy! Next appointment is in four weeks. It was suppose to be in three (when I’m three months) however my doctor will be out of the office. I will keep updating in the mean time about the pregnancy.
8 week Ultrasound
Today was my last appointment at Stanford. It was very bitter sweet! I will miss all of the nurses and doctors, but I am so ready to start seeing my own OBGYN that is five minutes away from my house. Good-bye hour and a half commute and horrible morning traffic! Ahh! As I was saying, today we had the 8 week ultrasound. It was so cool seeing the baby! It was even more amazing seeing the parents faces. They were so excited and happy! I’m sure I looked the same way when I saw my son for the first time! We got to hear the heartbeat as well. It was such a special moment that we all shared. Full of emotion, and tears! I will truly cherish these memories forever! The intended parents are so incredibly kind, and caring! They brought me some delicious fruit and another thoughtful gift. I am one lucky surrogate! It’s so weird for me to have everyone be so appreciative of what I am doing. It is so hard for me, because I don’t feel put out by any of it, I only feel happy and it all feels so normal. I am so fortunate to be able to have this experience. Many people I talk to say that they could never do what I am doing, but it’s such a natural thing to me. Helping someone in need is the best feeling in the world! That is what we are here on this earth to do, help people in any way that we can. This is my small contribution.
So far, I have had some morning sickness here and there. More like, morning, afternoon, and night sickness. LOL! A few days a week I will be sick all day, barely want to eat, and the other days I will be fine. It’s a lot different from when I was pregnant with my son. I was sick a lot with him when I would drive, but that was the worst of it. Now here I am sick most of the week. I will say that I haven’t been throwing up or anything. (Knock on wood!!!) Just nauseous and very very tired! I have lost some more weight which concerns me, but I’m sure its fine in the first trimester. Just something to add to the list of questions for my doctor. I also have been having some weird cravings. I don’t usually like spicy food but now I want spicy stuff! I was like that with my son, I remember going and getting spicy bread sticks with jalapenos. I never eat jalapenos!
Lastly, I thought I was going to be able to announce that I don’t have to do the intramuscular injections anymore, but I just found out that I have to do them for two more nights! Oh well, only two more nights to go. I stop taking the Estradiol pills today and I will continue the vaginal inserts for another month. After that it is just prenatal vitamins and aspirin. I will go see my doctor in two weeks when I am 10 weeks. (Warning, major corniness about to ensue. I can’t help it!) I feel like this whole journey has been like chapters in a book. There have already been so many of them, yet we are truly just beginning. I have closed the chapter on Stanford, and now I open the next. I can’t wait to see what is to come! Alright, enough of that!
Our First Ultrasound
So, we had our first ultrasound yesterday! It’s a baby! One, very small baby! (About the size of a sweet pea according to thebump.com.) PJ and the mother couldn’t make it, so it was just me and the father. We got to see the babies heartbeat, it was so magical! I was so excited for the father to see his baby for the first time! It filled my heart with so much joy!! After the ultrasound I got a call about the medications. I was told to continue the intramuscular injections until the first of October, and I could stop using the estrogen patches now. Yay, no more patches! Boo, more shots! Everything else will stay the same for another month or two! Vaginal progesterone, aspirin, Estrodile, and of course prenatal vitamins. I will go back to Stanford in two weeks (October 3rd) for another ultrasound. By that time the baby will be about the size of a raspberry, according to thebump.com.
Well, that was probably the shortest entry ever! :-) Until next time…
Oh! Before I forget! I have been getting a TON of spam! Like, a lot! (700 in a week) I haven’t had the time or patience to sit through and see if one or two might be an actual comment. If you have commented and I didn’t get back to you, I apologize! I will try and figure out a way to get the spam to stop and then I can actually read through the comments. Thanks!!
Some more updates!
So, now we are playing the waiting game again…waiting for the ultrasound to see the baby, or babies. According to my pregnancy tracker and Stanford, I am one day shy of 6 weeks pregnant. My due date is May 14, 2013! Woohoo! I am going to Stanford Wednesday for the ultrasound, which just so happens to be my husbands birthday. He has class all day so I will make the hour and a half drive to Stanford alone.
I am still taking all of the same medications. I do want to point out, I’m having some trouble with the meds. The shots hurt! My skin and muscles are so irritated that it just hurts all the time now. It’s not unbearable or anything, its just not fun! I did have to do a shot in my thigh the other night because I had no one to do it in my bottom for me. The shot itself didn’t hurt at all!! It was the day after that was awful! My thigh was SOOOOO sore! I could barely walk. By the second day it was much better. I don’t recommend doing the injection in the thigh, unless there is no other option. Another problem I am having with my meds is, I am allergic to adhesive. The estrogen patches are adhesive. My belly is covered in rashes and they itch like crazy!! :-( Lastly, to be honest, the vaginal inserts are making life pretty uncomfortable. I won’t go into detail; after all, I have family reading this thing! ;-) Lets just say, I am uncomfortable and can’t wait to be done!
Other then that, YA! I’M PREGNANT! Ah, it feels great to say that! I’m still so happy that this worked, and I am so excited for what is to come! I can’t wait to see the Intended Parents again! I am excited for all of us to find out if we are having multiples!
I am starting to have symptoms. I am almost always tired, like, really tired. I take naps when I can, I am not the type of person who likes to nap. I know it’s weird, but I would rather be cleaning the house, or playing with my son. I usually feel guilty after I take a nap. Not now though! If I don’t take a nap I feel terrible. I have also been feeling a little nauseous here and there, but nothing horrible. I’ve been eating balanced healthy meals (with the exception of the county fair food…YUM!) But even then I had some vegetables. (Does it still count if its deep fried?) lol! Well, I think that is all I have to report. I will let everyone know Wednesday what the verdict is. Place your bets folks!
The results are in!
Yesterday I went to Stanford to have my pregnancy test. I was going to post last night about it but the internet at our house wasn’t working. Alas, here I am at 9am sitting at Starbucks drinking a hot coco using their internet so that I can post this blog entry. I have the best company, my husband and son! So here we go, I’ll go ahead and tell you the results now so that I don’t keep you waiting any longer, I’m pregnant! Yay!! Wow, we did it! I’m full of so many emotions! I’m so incredibly happy for my Ip’s! They are the sweetest most deserving couple and I am honored to be caring their baby (or babies) inside of me! I will value and cherish this whole experience forever! I’m feeling relieved that I have an answer! Waiting was so hard to do! I’m also thankful that I won’t have to do all the medication all over again!
So the next step is back to Stanford on Thursday for another blood test to make sure that the pregnancy hormone has doubled and after that in two weeks we will have our first ultrasound. I think we find out then if it’s twins… :-) Until then I will continue with all medication for at least another month or so… Yikes! I can’t imagine another month of butt injections and vaginal inserts three times a day! It’s getting harder and harder to deal with. However, I am still completely and totally willing to keep doing it as long as it helps to make this pregnancy happen.
I do have a silly story to tell… As I was anxiously waiting for Stanford to call with my results, I ended up on the phone with PG&E. I thought it would be a quick call but as I answering questions with PG&E, I got the call from Stanford! The call that would answer the question that had been racking my brain for over a week! I HAD to know if I was pregnant, I was losing my mind!! I told the man on the other line that I had to go, that I had a VERY important call on the other line. Guess what happened? He wouldn’t let me off the phone. He was like, “No, wait, let me give you a reference number!” I was like, “NO! I have to go right now, this is an extremely important call!” I should have hung up right then but he pleaded for me to wait and write down a number. The call on the other line ended, I was truly devastated! I told the man that I missed the call. I know, I know, I should have just hung up because afterward I was PISSED!!!!! I had to wait an extra 30 minutes for Stanford to call back. It was truly torture-some! I was so angry with the man from PG&E for making me stay on the phone. Obviously what he wanted me to do was more important than my phone call. LOL! Oh well, it is over and I have my answer!!
Embryos transferred? Check! :-)
We did it! We transferred the embryos! Yup, two embryos. After a few days of thought and talking, we all decided that we wanted to go for it. Three of the embryos looked good, two looked the best, so we decided to try for both. There is a 40% chance of twins and I think the doctor said a 70%-75% chance of a pregnancy. We are all so excited! Here is how the day went:
I couldn’t sleep very well the night before the transfer. I was so excited and nervous. I kept thinking about everything that we all have been through leading up to this. So much time; so much work, so many emotions. It was all coming to fruition in a matter of hours. So I went to bed around 9:30 and couldn’t fall asleep until around 10:30 or 11. Then the unthinkable happened, my son woke up at 2am! LOL! Luckily, I think he may have been sleep talking. He just chattered away for probably a half an hour then went back to sleep…until about 3:15am. He was awake again, chattering away. He’s so silly. All in all I got about 4-5 hours of sleep, not too bad. My husband woke me up when he got home from work around 6:45. Poor guy, he didn’t get any sleep. :-( I got ready, woke my son up and we headed to my grandma’s house to drop him off. After that, we were on our way to Stanford. I was so excited driving up there. I was getting all sentimental, I had driven there so many times, and this time was THE time. When we arrived, I was SO nervous! We went upstairs and were quickly taken to a room. They checked my bladder to see if it was full enough, I was told to arrive with a full bladder. It turned out I didn’t drink enough so they had me drink another two big water bottles. I had already had one. I chugged the first one like my life depended on it. The second one was hard to get down. My husband went out to the waiting room to get me more water and the IP’s were there. He brought them back to the room with him. I was so happy to see them! I hadn’t seen them in so long, it was comforting to be with them again. We chatted and hung out until the doctor was ready. They checked my bladder again and told me to stop drinking, that it was definitely full enough now! Thank goodness! I had to pee SO bad! Once the doctor came in we talked about legal stuff, signed papers and made the decision to go for the two embryo transfer. I was so happy for my IP’s, they looked so excited, and definitely nervous. Once all of that was squared away it was time to begin. The intended father left the room to give me some privacy and the intended mother stayed by my side with my husband. I was so happy that she was able to experience this with me! I laid back on the table and scooted down towards the doctor. It all started immediately. She inserted a device to hold me open so she could clean my uterus. She used cotton swabs and some kind of liquid to clean everything out. Meanwhile, her assistant was using an ultrasound machine to view the uterus. She had to press down on my bladder so the doctor could get a good view of my ovaries. Man did I have to pee! I kept thinking, ‘please don’t pee on anyone, please don’t pee on the table…’ That would have been embarrassing and unpleasant. The whole process was uncomfortable, but not bad. I would do it again no problem. The part when she was cleaning stung a little bit, but even that wasn’t terrible. After everything was ready she had her assistant let the other people know that she was ready for the embryos. They were brought in, inserted into my uterus and they were done. That was it? Wow, that was easy. Now, the most important question of all…can I go pee now?!
After finally being able to pee, my husband and our IP’s left Stanford to go get some lunch. They told me I could choose the place. I am one of the most indecisive people you will ever meet, so is my husband, lol! We got to the parking lot where the IP’s gave me a gift and grapes from their grape vine. It was so sweet and thoughtful! We drove to the down town and walked around. There was some sort of farmers market going on; lots of art work, some music, and food. After walking around for a little while trying to decided what we wanted, we found the Cheesecake Factory. Yum! We had a very nice lunch! It was such a wonderful experience getting to spend time with them, especially after we just put the embryos in. It was so magical. I will cherish these memories forever!
The only thing that I noticed was different after the transfer was on the drive home I was SO tired. (Lack of sleep…) So when we got home my husband and I took a well deserved nap. Other then that, I feel great.
What is the next step? Well, we will have a pregnancy test on September 4th. Any positive thoughts and prayers would be greatly valued! I’m a big believer in the power of positive thinking and prayer. Until then for me, its going to be the same routine. Injections, inserts, pills, and patches. And you know what? I wouldn’t have it any other way!